Partings

Life is nothing but a series of connections formed by separations. Separations from diverse individuals, separations from different iterations of ourselves, separations from various stages of life, separations from different job positions… I am compelled to experience and endure the potential pains of each one, for until the final moments of my existence, I remain unaware of what my entire life entails.

This realization has shaped how I approach the passage of my days. Everything changed once I became conscious of this fact. I withdrew into myself, showcasing my abilities within the confines of my own little world each day. I know that if I were to pause, I would find emptiness all around me, and that thought is somewhat disheartening. It even prevents me from strolling leisurely; if my mind remains idle, it is quickly occupied by a sudden sense of loss.

Over time, I have grown less inclined to face others. More precisely, I am reluctant to allow others to face me. Even facing myself has become a daunting task.

There are numerous reasons for regret, but fundamentally, we hold only one-way tickets in our hands. Regret brings about a poignant sense of loss that becomes the crux of life’s most treasured memories.

人生不过是许多个别离。
和迭代版本别离、和不同的工作岗位别离、和不同年龄段的自己别离、和形形色色的人别离……
我们不得不一个个经历并承受这一切可能的痛苦，因为在生命的最后一刻前我们都无法知道自己的一生是什么样子。
把自己关起来，每天在自己的小小世界里大显身手。
长此以往，便开始不那么愿意面对别人。准确地说是不愿意让别人面对我。
后悔的原因有许多，但根本是，我们手里只有一张单程票。
而后悔带来的遗憾是让人生值得回味的关键。